Post by yulan on Apr 10, 2007 13:37:07 GMT -6
Yulan's RP Sample
She couldn't remember at which point she'd passed out.
Her first lucid thought was, has desert ground always been this firm?
Then, I’m still alive?... No way.
The cobwebs were clearing, but Stephanie still felt woozy, her bearings like those of a tourist just come off the cruise ship after spending two weeks at sea. She braced her elbow against the grass as she lifted herself into a reclining position, the other hand on her head. What’d happened? The last thing she recalled was absolute terror, endless falling, blue light so intense it’d forced her eyes shut and even then it had poured through her eyelids...
Wait. Grass?
Her eyes flew open.
Tropical foliage greeted her from every corner of her vision. Sprawling trees reaching for the sky, tangled nets fashioned by nature from vines, humongous leaves the size of her torso, and minus the strangely wine-colored grass beneath her, walls of green were just everywhere. She choked back the rising waves of panic that were threatening to overwhelm her sanity as she took in this impossible sight.
The desert. Oh god, where was the desert? Where were the oceans of sand, the shadows of faraway cacti? Where was her campsite?
Where the hell was she?
"...H-Hello? Is anyone there?"
Her desperate inquiry was swallowed by the thick overgrowth.
For a brief moment, Stephanie lost the battle against fear and let her body slump to the ground, her mind still struggling to process her surroundings as she stared into the iron-blue sky above, not really seeing. A thousand questions raced through her head, but not one of them paused long enough for her to study it and summon an answer. She shook, trembled with increasing violence as she tried to call back her wits.
The trip advertised in the brochure was a three-day expedition, and though her parents had been extremely reluctant to let her play around in the desert alone, they conceded that she was now a legal adult and deserved a chance to prove her trustworthiness. So, off she’d gone with happiness dancing in her stomach, armed with a tent, a sleeping bag, and a knapsack of essentials. With this rare firsthand experience in the harshest of climates under her belt, she’d be one step closer to her dream: making a career out of ecology.
Then she came across the rattlesnake. It’d only been day one of her trip, and already she messed up, not looking where she was stepping among the rocks... Its loud warning startled her into shrieking and jumping back—
—right into a pillar of blue light and a bottomless hole. She didn’t know how long she fell or if she ever landed, but apparently she had, because she was here. In a jungle. With red grass. No desert in sight.
Things had stopped making sense at the rattlesnake part.
Stephanie exhaled shakily and clapped her hands over her face, forcefully shoving her fear into the recesses of her mind. It was time to calm down now. Stop spazzing and calm down, she told herself sternly. There was a reasonable explanation for all of this, but as long as she was hyperventilating, she wouldn’t figure out what was going on. Within a couple of minutes, her breathing pattern had slowed to a relatively normal rhythm.
But even with rationality back in her possession, she was no closer to cracking the mystery of how she’d wound up in this sweltering plant pit. Seriously, how...? What...? Why...?
Impossible. Everything was just impossible. This had to be a dream. That was it, wasn’t it? She’d tripped after being scared by that rattlesnake and knocked herself silly. She was probably baking in the desert sun right now, unconscious but alright, dreaming about waking up in a foreign place like this. It was the only explanation.
She experimentally pinched herself. Ouch.
Maybe this wasn’t a dream after all.
Panic came bubbling back, nearly pushing a sob past her lips, but she held her ground against it. No, she had to stay calm.
Slowly, Stephanie turned over and eased herself into a half-kneel, half-crouch, swinging her wild-eyed gaze across the massive plant life in front of her, searching for… anything, really. Anything that might help her answer why she was here.
Through her peripheral vision, she noticed a few tools from her knapsack lying in the grass nearby, and immediately picked them up. A box of matches. The compass. And her pocketknife. Not much—where had the rest of her stuff gone?—but it was better than nothing.
Despite her current situation, Stephanie smiled as she turned the pocketknife over in her palm, relishing the feel of smooth wood and the thin slice of blade that peered over the edge of its cover. She ran the pad of her thumb across its surface, and somehow, it had a rejuvenating effect on her, erasing some of the terror that had nearly shaken her to pieces a few moments ago. This pocketknife was real. It was something to hold onto, something she could see and touch and confirm. Her body wasn’t the only thing that had dropped out of her world and landed in this one. Her pocketknife had come with her. In a way, she wasn’t alone in this alien place, and the thought was mercifully comforting.
Was she actually gaining hope? Pft. She was going crazy, that’s what.
Stephanie stuffed her items into the pockets of her cargo pants and stood, carefully testing each inch of herself for injuries. A few spots were sore, but nothing seemed to be broken, and as far as she could tell, she wasn’t bleeding from anywhere. Now, since she’d established that she was able to move, she’d better do just that. Move and find out what on earth was going on, and perhaps more importantly, where she was.
As an afterthought, she retrieved the knife from her pocket and flicked it open as she proceeded to fight through the natural nets blocking her way.
———
She quickly learned that she was ill-adapted to jungle weather. It didn’t take long for the heavily layered heat to burrow through her clothes and skin and take up residence inside her, weakening her steps to half-hearted trudging. Even worse, the sheer humidity ensured that the heat would only continue piling up inside her body even if she tried to chase it out. Sweat was evaporating almost as fast as she produced it, but her shirt was nonetheless soaked and she winced to feel how sticky her face was whenever she reached up to brush her hair away from her eyes.
How much time had passed? How far had she gotten? It must’ve been at least a couple hours since she’d woken up, but without a way to keep track of the time, Stephanie had to rely on pure estimation, and considering how fried her brain was, she probably couldn’t rely on that. So instead of wondering about it, she simply walked on.
Eventually, her legs became too much like stone for her to coax them to move, and she collapsed at the base of one of the giant twisted trees that were everywhere in this place. The grass was still blood red. The sky was still that crazy gray-blue color that simultaneously suggested imminent rainfall and an artist’s blank canvas. During her reluctant hike, she’d laid eyes on insects the size of her fingers and plants that seemed to have teeth. If she wasn’t so lost and exhausted, the ecologist in her might’ve appreciated the bizarre beauty all around her, but as it was, the only thing she could think about as she looked around was a morbidly literal metaphor for the jungle eating her alive.
Trying to distract herself from the sensation of sandpaper in her throat every time she swallowed, Stephanie fished out the compass and held it flat in her palm. Let’s see... If north was this way, and the sun was casting shadows in this direction... Then, assuming she was still on planet Earth (she chuckled wryly), it was afternoon.
God. It was afternoon.
The terrifying notion that she might actually be stuck here until nightfall was gradually dawning on her. She couldn’t even begin to imagine what she’d do if she had to camp out—
Fear snaked up from where it had been waiting in the pit of her stomach and slowly coiled around her heart. It squeezed, and she felt dread pound against her chest with each pulse. She couldn’t breathe. She couldn’t think.
Spend the night here? How? She had no food, no water, no means of communication... Her supplies consisted of a box of matches and a pocketknife. And even if she woke up in one piece tomorrow, what would she do then? Start the cycle all over? Wander aimlessly through the damp brush while the heat slowly boiled her life away? How long would it go on?
Impossible. She wouldn’t make it.
This particular thought finally sent a spasm of weakness through her limbs; she could feel it in her legs even though she was sitting. They didn’t feel like stone anymore. Now they felt like jelly.
I could die.
Tears stung the corners of her eyes, and as always, she fought to hold them back and gripped fiercely onto her fleeing sanity. Onto hope. There was no way she’d let it end here, not in this strange jungle. She would get out of here before then. There was still plenty of time to escape, plenty of chances.
Pumping herself full of more courage than she really had, Stephanie pulled herself onto her feet and inhaled the thick air. Keep marching, girl, she ordered. Trees don’t go on forever.
But they did. The trees were all she saw. Everywhere she turned, more trees. Trees to her left, trees to her right. She looked up and found mostly canopy, just a few splotches of sky pushing through here and there. At her feet, a carpet of fallen leaves and broken branches. Behind her, the trees she’d gotten away from. In front of her, the trees she’d yet to defeat and which hid unknown danger.
In front of her, the trees she didn’t have the energy to struggle past.
Before long, she collapsed again. It was simply too much, this humidity; she wasn’t designed for this environment. Hot and dry were what she was used to in her southern California home. Hot and dry she could handle. But the damp heat of this place was too incredible, how it clung onto her very bones and dried her throat with fever, soaked her clothes into a second skin she didn’t need. She could barely lift her head.
Stephanie languidly wondered if she’d contracted some sort of exotic disease. Maybe one of those big bugs had stung her without her realizing it.
I need water.
Rolling over required more effort than it should’ve. Flat on her back now, she took in a few more deep breaths, inwardly cursing the near-tangibility of the suffocating air, and turned her attention to the trees. On some of them, she’d seen fruit dotting their branches, purple bulbs with stripes a rather alarming shade of electric blue. They were pretty high up, but the gnarled trunks of these trees provided natural footholds, and she’d always been pretty good at climbing. While she had been unable to find any sources of water thus far, if she could get a little fruit juice into her system, it might be enough.
But the question was, were these bright fruits safe to eat?
She’d almost hit the point of being too weak and thirsty to care. But admitting that was also admitting that the situation had gotten a lot worse, and that she refused to acknowledge. She wasn’t ready to give in yet; this was not a nightmare, just a bad dream. She could hold out a bit longer. No reason to worry about something as serious as survival.
However, the pessimistic little voice that everybody eventually discovered to be hiding in the back of their minds grabbed her by the ears and urged her to face the truth.
This was bad. This was becoming downright dangerous. At this rate...
Get a grip.
She scowled and shut her eyes, sucking in air through her teeth as she tried to ignore the disgusting feeling of sweat rolling down her body. She didn’t have to test whether the fruits were edible or not right now. She wasn’t that desperate. Not yet. It’d only been a few hours at most, and humans could live three days without water, right? And a couple months without food?
... But there was no need to be thinking like that, because she was not going to be stuck here that long. There was no way she was going to remain trapped here for that long.
Still, she could use a little nourishment right now—
What was that?
Stephanie bolted upright and tightened her grip on her pocketknife, frantically sweeping her eyes across the woven jungle around her. Just now, she was almost positive she’d heard something, and it hadn’t been a very encouraging something. It was a pop, no—more of a snapping noise, like a foot stepping—
There it was again.
Funny how swiftly strength returned when there was proper motivation. All discomfort oozed away from her senses as she sprang to her feet and backed herself against a tree, keeping her knife in a trembling but otherwise steady position in front of her. Her other hand sought the trunk for support, using it as a sort of pivot as she swung to and fro, nerves strung so painfully taut she was completely prepared to stab the first moving object to enter her sights, never mind that the sound of her own heart pounding in her ears interfered with her concentration. Speculations ran rampant through her head, each one crazier and more disconcerting than the last.
She had never been more scared in her entire life.
The seconds crawled by, each carving grooves into her already fragile mental state. Was it not enough that she’d been haphazardly flung into this foreign leafy hell to meet slow, uncertain death? What more trauma did she have to go through?
Unlike its predecessors, this question was unfortunately answered.
There was no further warning, just a heart-stopping crunch as something huge and furry and fast came barreling out of the bushes and directly at her. Stephanie took all of two seconds to gape in horrified awe at the rapidly approaching set of fangs and claws before she threw herself to the side and scampered for safety, not daring to look over her shoulder as she heard it collide with the tree. Panic had finally invaded in a single decisive moment. But this was no time to be rational. This was the time to fall back on pure instinct.
Beast. Danger. Flee.
She gasped for breath, not nearly able to get enough oxygen from the jungle air as she fought through the underbrush, only superficially aware that she’d miraculously maintained her grip on her pocketknife. But it made no difference now; her knife had been so comforting back then when she’d first woken up, but now, it was just a dinky toy. Useless. She kept running, screamed back at her screaming leg muscles not to stop working no matter what. But somewhere deep inside her mind where her sanity had taken refuge, she knew she wasn’t going to get away. She was too exhausted, operating on insufficient fuel. She’d break down soon, she knew it; every breath was like inhaling powdered glass. Within one of the next several seconds, she was going to choke, trip, and meet her doom. It was inevitable.
Her eyes were geared towards her front, but every other sense was focusing on what was behind her, and oh, how well aware she was of the distance her pursuer had gained. She could hear it tearing through the foliage, smell its hunger, taste its eager breath, feel its claws sinking into her back—
An unknown force suddenly wrenched her feet out from under her and sent her tumbling to the ground. But it didn’t end there. The earth sloped downwards, happily delivering the now screaming girl deeper into the jungle. The world flipped and reversed itself too quickly for her to count, knocking fresh bruises and scrapes onto her exposed skin as she rolled. She couldn’t stop herself, only tuck her elbows in and pray she didn’t split her head open on a rock once she landed.
The split-second sensation of falling, then...
With a thud, it was over.
She was in too much pain to believe. Every fiber of her being shook in protest against how hard she’d pushed it in her struggle to escape. It had almost been too much. Her legs were on fire. Her lungs refused to inflate now. She couldn’t feel her spine. Even the ends of her hair hurt.
But she was alive.
Wheezing, Stephanie turned over and fearfully looked up. Ten feet above, from the edge of the cliff from which she’d just fallen off, the beast surveyed her with what seemed like satisfaction, then retreated and quietly melted away into the jungle.
She let her head drop and broke down sobbing.
———
After reclaiming her wits, she dried her eyes and picked herself up to explore this new area, hoping to find some way back onto higher ground. Not that she wanted to square off against the beast again, but somehow, this place gave her the impression that she’d taken a step backwards and had actually gotten herself further into the jungle, not closer to its outskirts. She investigated a bit, looking for a spot where the cliff dropped down to her level and she might be able to grab hold of the edge, but as far as she could tell, the rocky wall continued straight for quite a while. She’d have to find another way back up; even if she was in her best condition, she sincerely doubted she’d be able to climb this thing without a harness.
Night came.
That pocketknife was truly a loyal friend. Magically, it’d stayed by her side all during that terrifying episode, even following her down the hill and off the cliff into the depression. She finally put it to good use and cut some vegetation to build a fire. At first, she was afraid her choice of firewood would be too damp to kindle, but fate granted her a reprieve, and she had her source of light ready by the time the sun slipped below the treeline.
But without something to distract her—looking for a natural incline to crawl back up or slicing branches—Stephanie’s awareness of her fatigue returned in full force. It knocked its fist on her head, whistled in her ear, reminded her of how thirsty and hungry and hot and tired she was. She didn’t need the fire for warmth, but just having something nearby that was moving and alive, figuratively speaking, helped wonders in keeping her calm. Heaven knows she needed to keep calm now that a whole day had officially passed and she was still here after all.
Watching the sparks play only did so much, however, and as she lay on her side, one arm tightly draped across her stomach, her fears from earlier slithered out of the flickering darkness and curled up beside her body to keep her occupied for the night.
No food, no water, no means of communication... It was time to discard foolish hope and properly analyze her choices. She needed to plan, to think. To survive. How and why she’d arrived here no longer mattered. All that was important was that she got out in one piece.
But the events of the day had been draining, so to speak. She was completely spent. She could barely hold her eyes open, much less make plans for tomorrow.
Wimp.
How did that saying go? 'You can sleep when you're dead'?
It was so easy for heroes in books and movies to spout off motivational one-liners. Difficult and complicated as life was, people needed encouragement to continue forward after a struggle, and if impromptu therapy with a loved one didn't work, at the very least they could turn to those inspirational, commercial fiction-derived quotes that were found in forum signatures all across the Internet. They trivialized failure by claiming that "there are worse things than death", so "never give up" because "all you have to lose is your life".
But therein lay the ugly, frightening truth of the matter. If she failed to get out of this place, she would die. Even if she'd only lose her life, it was still her goddamned life. Her life was the past she'd spent the last eighteen years constructing and the futures she was planning out, both near and far. It was her hopes and disappointments. Her memories of people, places, and events. Her feelings towards those people, places, and events, and even then her feelings weren't stagnant. They were changing all the time. Take now, for example. Under normal circumstances she hated her little snot of a kid brother, but completely alone out here in this utterly hostile jungle, not knowing if she'd live or die, she would gladly cut off her foot if she could just see him again and poke his dimples when he smiled.
She didn't want to die. If she did, she'd lose all her accomplishments, all her memories, every emotion that had ever swept through her heart, everything, and cease to exist. A corpse wasn't a person, nor was it an acceptable reminder of one. It was an object. An object that others referred to in past tense.
She really didn't want to die.
But at this rate...
Despair washed over her as she silently finished that sentence. Attempting vainly to stop from crying again, Stephanie turned her face into the dirt and shook, harshly berating herself. She’d already cried just a few hours ago. Once a day was enough. She was not that weak. But the first fit of sobbing had been out of relief for successfully escaping the beast. This fit of sobbing was out of miserable fear, for the tears she’d reigned in since the very beginning of this whole ordeal. Caught in her whimpers were the wishes she knew would not be fulfilled.
She wanted to go home. She wanted to see her family again. She wanted to make fun of her snot of a kid brother, then mess up his hair and promise that she’d only been joking. She wanted to drink water until she drowned, taste her parents’ fantastic cooking. She wanted to be in her own bed, in her own room, in her own safe house, in her own neighborhood where there were no ravenous beasts and plenty of air conditioning.
She wanted to attend college in the fall. She wanted to move out and experience independent adult life (granted, her folks were paying half her tuition). She wanted to meet her first boyfriend, have her first break-up, have her first make-up. She wanted to graduate and travel the world in the name of science, protect the environment, publish her findings. She wanted to be a wife, a mother. She wanted to get married, have two children and maybe a pet.
She wanted so many things, but she’d settle for going home first.
I just want to go home.
That dratted voice in her head scolded her amid her broken sobs. ‘What do you think you’re doing?’ it demanded. ‘Are you really surrendering your dignity? Now? After everything you’ve already been through?’
But she didn’t care anymore. There was no one out here to see her. No one.
Eventually, Stephanie cried herself dry and wiped her face off, resuming her original position on her side as she stared forlornly at the fire. Alright, she’d gotten her fears into the open... Now that they weren’t haunting her subconscious, maybe she’d be able to make a few plans before she tried to sleep. Idly, she wondered how many more times she’d have to go through these annoying bursts of anguish and rational thought.
The smoke from the fire disappeared into the darkness, and watching it reminded her that if nothing else, she had the power of fire at her disposal. She could build a bigger fire tomorrow, a signal fire, and hopefully attract someone’s attention. Though she’d never heard of any jungle quite like this one and still didn’t know if she was even on planet Earth, it was a plan, and she’d run with it for now.
Then there was the matter of food and water. Safe consumption was still an issue, of course, but whether or not the fruit was safe to eat would soon become a moot point. If she allowed her strength to dwindle much more than it had already, it wouldn't matter if she poisoned herself or starved; either way, she was done for. So, that settled it. Tomorrow, she was getting some of that fruit and putting energy back into her system. She could better deal with that beast once she was fed.
Three days without water. One or two months without food. When had her life become a countdown of days and hours, a checklist of things to do to ensure that she didn’t die?
Since now. But it wasn’t surrender, she thought. No, this wasn’t surrender. This was just being practical. She’d always been a practical, reasonable person, and besides, wasn’t it the practical early human beings who’d kick-started civilization in the first place?
She felt somewhat better. Stephanie snuggled her face into her arm and closed her eyes.
She wouldn’t give up. Because it was her life she had to lose, she was going to make sure she got out of here and went home. Because her life was just getting started.