Post by trakada on Aug 18, 2010 5:55:20 GMT -6
Okays, sorry it took so long getting this up. ^^
Display Name: Trakada
Real Age: 20
Gender: Male
Trakada was never more at peace then when he could feel the light of the full moon across his face. The brown-haired Waterbender would find himself distracted by anticipation before the first night of the phase, sometimes even unable to preform his other duties as he awaited the sun to set. When it finally did, he would always find his way up to the same quiet chamber at the top of a mostly unused ice structure near the outer wall.
The room could not have been any bigger than maybe four meters across in any direction, and it was very plain- simply bare walls and a single large-ish window looking out onto the ocean. The floor was lightly textured with snow to provide traction. And yet, emotionally, it was the most extravagant place in the entire city. Trakada had been coming here for almost six years now to organize his thoughts and re-focus his spirit to whatever lay ahead of him.
In, out, up, down... he went through his Waterbending forms slowly and calmly, like he did each month, his deep blue eyes lidded as he did. Up here, he was one with the moon and the ocean. One with the movements of his discipline. Unburdened by matters of day-to-day life. The moonlight fell softly against his slightly angular and pale features. The sound of the gentle waves recalled in his mind all of the times he had spent doing just this, and in this very spot.
He recalled the first time he had found the place, frustrated and fuming after nearly being expelled by Master Pakku. That night, he had wanted to bring the might of the tides crashing down on his frustrations, or maybe just disappear into the surf to escape his problems. In his unfocused anger, he recalled, he hadn't exactly known what he wanted. That was the night he met Yenna.
Yenna. This had been their place for a time, his and hers. He recalled the way the moonlight used to reflect off of her hair, her eyes.... the way her laughter had sounded echoing through the small chamber. He wondered if she had really changed so much after all of this time, or if he had just seen her differently back then.
Ripples of feeling went through Trakada as he finished his forms and moved over to the lone window, looking out and down to where he and Yenna had used to use their bending to make a small ledge to sit on. He recalled it having given him a little bit of vertigo the first couple of times- which is something Yenna still hadn't really stopped teasing him about to this day.
Almost reluctantly, he closed his eyes again and reached out to the frozen water around him, moving his palms in a slow, upward then outward movement. There was a sound of scraping ice, and a small ledge just like the ones he and Yenna used to make pushed its way out from the side of the tower. Carefully, he lifted his fur-trimmed boot to the windowsill and hoisted himself up and out onto the newly-formed perch.
The young warrior doubled-up the bottom part of his cerulean coat beneath him to insulate from the cold and sat cross-legged, overlooking the ocean beyond the terraced city below him. In his mind's eye, he could see visions of what lay beyond. New and strange lands. Interesting people. Countless adventures. And a war that had found its way right to his own front door. A war that had claimed his father's life.
Trakada had been feeling it for some time now, but tonight the feeling seemed stronger than ever before. He just couldn't stay here. The reasons were not trivial. For one thing, there was a lot of good he could be doing in the south. Maybe if he were in the right place at the right time, he could be the difference between someone else losing a loved one to the Fire Nation. He was under no illusion that he could end the war himself, but if he could make a difference to just one family, then what was he doing here?
That wasn't the only reason, though, he reminded himself as a tear formed at the corner of one eye. There was also Yenna...
He could barely look at her anymore, nor she him. They still did their best to keep up the appearance of the happy couple, especially around Trakada's mother. She had just lost a husband, and the least they could do for her is give her the impression that she still had a strong family left. Which wasn't completely untrue. Trakada and Yenna were family, and they always would be. They even loved each-other, that much was true. They just couldn't make themselves love each-other in the way that their parents had wanted.
Trakada wiped the tear off onto his glove, and idly twirled it in the air in front of him a couple times, using a simple bending motion of his fingers, before letting it plummet from the ledge to the icy streets below.
They had tried, but it just wasn't meant to be. To each-other, they were like the siblings that the two only-children had never had. The times they had spent together, right here in the spot where Trakada now sat, were times spent as best friends, not lovers. It only made it harder knowing that Yenna's parents had gotten along like two sea lions fighting over scraps of meat her whole life. Trakada more than anything thought Yenna deserved a happy marriage to make up for the impression her parents had given her, and it ate away at him every day that she probably never would because of him.
Deep inside, he had already made the decision to leave some time ago. It was likely only his newly-widowed mother that had caused him to hesitate. But she had always been strong, able, and independent. In the long run, he felt, he would be doing her a disservice as much as himself if he stayed around just for her sake. She had always wanted him to lead a full, exciting life.
Trakada got carefully to his feet, confused by the fact that his expression had involuntarily distilled into a weary grin. He faced the moon once again and looked, captivated, into its silver glow for a few moments, letting its light wash over him and soak into his being through the cold night air.
It would be better this way. He would go to collect his things in the morning.